have you ever felt like everyone is watching and waiting just to see you lose? watching and waiting for you to make the wrong decision so they can prove they knew what was best all along?

i have.

and let me tell you, it sucks.

p.s. i may lose in the end... but at least i did my best. my little heart and i tried so hard to make the decision for ourselves despite what everybody else had to say. and let me tell you, making decisions on your own, when every other person (including those you know love you) are whispering their idea of a "solution" in your ear... is so. hard. the worst kind of hard; the kind of hard that makes your heart hurt.